Martine McCutcheon, who plays Natalie in the popular festive classic Love Actually, has admitted she doesn’t watch the film at Christmas like most of the world probably does.

In an interview with Metro, the musician and actress revealed that she does not enjoy watching the film at Christmas.

“I have never, ever been able to watch myself back on anything! When I’m on set and I’m looking at the monitor I can be objective then and get my actress head on and know what I need to do differently… but once it’s done and it’s in the can, there’s something so weird about seeing yourself on the TV or a huge cinema screen,” she explained.

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“I’m not the only one, a lot of actors I speak to, even though they love the process, watching it back is really odd. My family love the film, but I’m like 'Oh God, I’m gonna go and make dessert' or whatever it is when it comes on,” she said.

“I’m blown away that all these years later it’s this phenomenon and such a part of people’s Christmas and people have it in their hearts and love it so much, I think it’s a real honour, I think it’s lovely,” she added.

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She also talked about how the film has aged and what she feels about it 20 years on, knowing some parts of the movie don’t work as well in today’s world, including comments about her character’s weight.

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“There’s a lot of things that happen in it that aren’t PC, that aren’t perfect, that aren’t something you should want ideally. But they are real human emotions, and human beings aren’t always perfect. And there’s something about Natalie’s vulnerability, and I think Richard [Curtis] wanted a character who didn’t realise what she had,” she said.

“She didn’t realise that actually it was her boyfriend who was the idiot and there was nothing wrong with her at all, she was lovely as she was. The fact she was so open to the most powerful man in the country about her little vulnerability about herself was a very human thing. I think that’s part of what makes it human, and the fact it’s very real,” she added.

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